Remember how I mentioned that I was trying to savour each day left with my 3rd graders before summer came?
Well, I take it back.
Get me to summer, and get me to summer fast.
You know how you hear about marathon runners hitting “the wall?” When they just cant.go.on?
Well, that was me today. Only I was surrounded by 22 yelling kids instead of spectators, I had a whiteboard behind me instead of a race course, and I had on my Ann Taylor Loft dress and cardigan instead of running gear.
It was hell.
I try to keep this blog positive, but honestly, I need to vent, and I want those teachers-to-be out there to realize that it’s not all “warm fuzzies” being a teacher.
It was just one of those days where my students weren’t listening to a word I was saying, they had a million thousand questions for me (all of which, I had answered previously, but like I said, they weren’t listening), they were fighting with each other, tattling on each other, stealing pencils from each other, etc. etc. etc.
Quite honestly, this all happens on a normal day… however, today my patience was running on empty.
Having 22 kids that all need (and deserve) your undivided attention wears you down, and it can be overwhelming.
I love teaching, and I love all of my students, but today all I could think about was how badly I needed a break. As much as I wanted to walk out of the classroom for a breather, I couldn’t. That’s the thing with teaching…. you are always on. The students are always watching your reaction, always waiting to see what you’ll do, and you have to remain calm and collected.
I’m not claiming that I didn’t raise my voice today, because I definitely did, but I had to do it in a calm way (if that’s even possible.)
You better believe inside I was screaming and crying and throwing a fit like a two year old though…..
So yeahhh… about my claim that I wanted these last few days of school to slow down so I could really enjoy them?
GET ME TO SUMMER.
What do you do to calm yourself down when your patience is at ZERO?
Do you remember any teachers when you were growing up losing their patience?
If your a teacher, please tell me I’m not the only one who has days like this!